Distance - According to Merriam Webster: (noun). The extent of space between two objects or places; an intervening space.
Distance - As experienced by Tiffany Rogers: (reality). It's not for
the weak. It is for the bold. It's for those who don't mind every day
being part of an ever-present countdown. It's for those who turn
"good-bye's" into "see you soon's." It's for those who have perfected
the art of communicating by every form of
technology imaginable. It's for those who know a good thing when they
see it. Even if they don't see it nearly enough. It's for those willing
to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one
they love. It's for those who are strong enough to know, without a
doubt, that every moment is so completely worth it!
Saying good bye to somebody I love has got to be the the hardest thing I have ever done.. Especially since it is the love of my life. Last night, at 8:45 pm, I told my Army Man "Until Next Time" because I couldn't bear the words of good bye. I thought I was going to die from crying too much. I put his Red, White, and Blue Boxers on.. Cuddled up to my stuffed animals he gave me.. and finally fell asleep at 10:35.
This is going to be my daily blog about becoming an Army Girlfriend.. I don't know what to really say.. So I'm just going to do this.
Day 1:
This morning I woke up at 6:30.. Checked my phone in excitement for my good morning text.. and came back to reality when I remembered that my other half is 667 miles away from me.
Disappointing? Yes.
Was I surprised? No.
It is going to take me a while to adapt to this new life I am going to be living.. An Army Girlfriend. I have been preparing for this for the past 6 months, it is now time to take all of that preparation and turn it into my new reality.
I showered and dressed.. Looking like a slob with my hair in a wet pony tail and my throw on my favorite outfit: shorts and a sweatshirt, I headed to campus feeling alone.
I went through my first two classes without looking at my phone because every time I look at it, I see my loves face and it makes me wonder: What is he doing? How is he feeling? Is he excited/nervous? Is he thinking about me?.. Does he still love me?
Yes, these are the questions that ran through my head a lot this morning. Sometimes I couldn't even help myself but constantly check my phone to make sure I didn't miss a phone call or a text.. But thanks to my bad habits, I was once again disappointed because I knew better.
I later went through his Facebook profile during my 3 hour class break and looked at all of the pictures of him and I, being happy, silly, in love.. It made me wish he was here to snuggle with me and tell me that every thing is going to be alright. I mean, it hasn't even been 24 hours since I have talked to him.. So I can fantasize, right?
I went through my last class board to death. Listening to a hour and a half of class lectures and being treated like a 6 year old is the last thing I wanted to do.. So when our teacher was done, i sprinted home and scarfed a sandwich, talked to my roomies, watched some news, and now I'm blogging about my day.
I miss my Army Man like crazy.. I can't help but think about him and constantly let my mind wonder about him. I've already started my count down until he comes home.. So I think I should be entitled to all of these feelings.. Thought, there is a part of me that makes me wonder if when we see each other again.. Will it be awkward?
These are all early-on emotions and questions that I have right now.. I need to write him a letter, but there is a part of me that is nervous to do it for some reason because what do I say? Uhg.. I have a feeling that I need some practice before I mail him a letter out.. Good thing I don't know what his address is yet.
Today I have learned that my Army Man is a very big part of my life and I am glad and proud that he has chosen me to be apart of this chapter in his life. I am missing him like crazy even though I don't feel any thing right now.. I think I am just numb more than anything.. I am very nervous to see him again because I don't even know what to say to him in a letter.. Wish me luck.
Crossing my fingers that tomorrow will be a brighter day..
2 Months.. 1 Week.. 5 Days..
One Day Closer To Being Reunited To My Love
